June 4, 2015

You are for me.

[The gospel of justifying faith means that while Christians are, in themselves still sinful and sinning, yet in Christ, in God’s sight, they are accepted and righteous. So we can say that we are more wicked than we ever dared believe, but more loved and accepted in Christ than we ever dared hope — at the very same time. This creates a radical new dynamic for personal growth. It means that the more you see your own flaws and sins, the more precious, electrifying, and amazing God’s grace appears to you.] Tim Keller

Father thank you that you are faithful to always welcome me back, that you forgive every time I get caught up building my own kingdom, with my own version of the gospel. Forgive me for being quick to speak and slow to pray. I pray that you would give me your heart for people, that I would seek to kill the selfishness that slowly tightens it’s grip on my heart. Untangle me from the strings of pride, that the enemy would have no control of my movements, like a puppet that’s had it’s strings cut. Give me confidence that you love this broken, wobbly mess. Help me understand the reality that you are for me, that you sent your son to die in my place in order that I would be saved. Me. Allllllll of me. 

I want to be someone who understands the gospel, and lives in the glorious light of it. I want to be someone who understands, and lives in light of my new identity, “more loved and accepted” than I could ever imagine. I want that reality to transform how I view other people. I want to be an advocate of grace, an encourager and someone who forgives and moves forward with the hope of restoration. So often I fail at one, or multiple of those realities. I’m quick to speak, hot headed and offended. I’m too rushed to see another perspective, and too eager to fix everyone's problems. I’m eager to give an opinion, and quick to be harsh. This does not build up, this doesn’t cherish, this doesn’t celebrate the gospel, this doesn’t glorify Christ. However through this failing, God's grace appears "precious electrifying and amazing." This is my hope, this is my anchor, this is my motivation. 

[But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.] 2 Cor 12:9